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I'm so down today. I don't know why it was over all a good day. I had a dr appt and everything is fine, but since they won't set me up with an induction it makes me nervous. I know baby will come when he is ready, but I don't want Tony to miss it because he has to keep the boys. But I can't settle for just anyone anywhere to keep my boys. I just don't leave them. The neighbors have offered, but will be out of town the weekend after Tony gets here which is when I would like Zander to come along. Why does the Army have to be so dang difficult? Don't they deal with unique situations all the time requiring special help? I mean we have to rent a car, find childcare, and I'm just miserable a lot. I mean everything is fine, but my pelvic bone hurts, my sciatic nerve hurts. I don't want him early, but just a date within the week of the 18th would be great. Whatever I again feel like I'm being screwed by the army, but what more could you expect from the Army. They just keep telling me that well someone should help you, you fucking think? They keep asking isn't there anyone that can come from MO to help you? Well idiots if I have nothing scheduled what the hell are they coming for weeks until baby makes his appearance on his own. They are really just ignorant. I should have looked for something better. I know army hospitals aren't about the patients, I should have picked one that is.