until Tony comes home and I run away. Nobody is freaking listening to me. I have to yell all the time and I still get no where. I feel like I have too many kids, but I also feel like I can handle my large family when I have my husband around. He at least offers me a little support even if it's only him spending time with me. I really do like the alone time I have when he's gone, but I'm so done with it this time. I'll take him back now.
Zachary has just become super annoying. He babbles nonsense all the time and won't just stop talking. Goodness sakes he is 9 when I tell him to stop talking can he please just shut up? He does seem to be the only one doing ok in school as far as I can tell. Parent teacher conferences are tomorrow so I guess I'll find out for sure.
Zayden has been an extra loaded handful this time since Tony left, but also for several months. He seems to try some days and others he just fights me on every single direction/rule he is given. I'm not sure that Tony coming home will fix him, but we'll see.
Zavier on the other hand can't seem to keep his hands off others at school. I did fill his teacher in today that Daddy has been gone for a few weeks so it's starting to wear on all of us.
Zander has had 2 starbursts with wrappers today in addition to the 2 he had without wrappers. That is the just the example of Zander being a naughty toddler.
I know I always count on Tony to be my saving grace and while he is some he is certainly not the answer to the household that is over run by destructive and out of control little boys.
One day at a time, one day at a time is the only way we are making this. How am I going to do a deployment next year? I was in such a better place for the last one that looking back I truly had a good time while he was gone. I missed him terribly, but I was able to have plenty of friends in the same boat and lots to do. I just don't have that here at all. I have one friend that I see usually once a week and that is it. I have been going to a church here and am loving it for the boys I haven't found personal friendships to take outside church. I really do hate it here, but I have no where else I want to go right now so I'm sadly hoping that the next 18 months breeze by. I hate wishing for time to go faster though because the more time that passes the more my little ones grow to be big ones and it will only be a matter of time before they're gone. However after today I'd love for them to be grown and out of the house, but that probably won't last long. lol Praying that God gives me a little glimpse of his plan to hold on to until things ever return to normal here. Saying that though, what's normal? I have loved these 2 years that Tony has been home for the most part with no deployments. While he has done 3 30 day training's and a few smaller ones this is the most he's been home since we were married and he joined the army in 2004.
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