I think I want

A homebirth. I looked it up more when Tony was going to deploy before baby was born so that I wouldn't have to leave Zander to go have a baby. However when we were racing the clock a bit I wanted an induction to be an option do that he could be there when his baby girl was born. It seems though now that we're pretty certain he will at least be here for delivery and possibly his 10 paternity days. Well the midwife that I contacted before contacted me this morning to check to see if I was still interested and I said no to begin with, but the more I think about it I do want to deliver at home. Deliveries are rather smooth and midwives are very well equipped today. I am totally scared to give birth because it is so painful. However I will be drug free either way. I have wanted one since I had Zayden but never had the support or the funds. Today I found the cost of the midwife here is totally reasonable and affordable for us. I do want to talk it over with Tony, but even he mentioned a few weeks ago how convenient it would be to deliver at home so we don't have to work out childcare for during the delivery. I do know he is wierded out if I was to deliver in our bed, but I don't have to. Hopefully he'll give me the ok to meet the midwife and see that she would fit for our delivery. This is something I would love to experience since this is my "last".