Harder than I thought

My oh My 5 is harder than I expected. Keeping Abbie fed every few hours while trying to keep the other 4 busy, fed, and carted around as needed is quite the challenge. I know my mood totally affects how the day is going to go. Today started rough because Zachary didn't realize that he still had school today, so he was grumpy. Then I went to the grocery store to pick up the on sale items from the ad. I dropped the big boys off for their last day of school and then headed to the store. They have been riding the bus since Tony left in April to make things easier for me. However when we got to the store we went in and I put Zander in the front of the cart, Abbie in her carseat in the back, and was going to have Zavier walk. I started at the milk which was located in the back of the store. However when we got back there I then realized why Zavier had asked to ride in the cart, he wasn't wearing shoes. AWESOME! So then I tossed him in the cart too, squeezed in the groceries and got the heck out of there. 

Went to the Post office and mailed off Tony's 6th box (2nd this week). I want to keep it at about a box a week so that he should be getting plenty of mail. Right now I am the only one sending him packages and after being overseas (which isn't the same as a deployment) I certainly know the value of something to look forward too. Wanting to keep his spirits up since this is a much more active deployment than the last.

I am still trying/hoping to get the rest of the garden planted soon. It's not going very well as I have only got 2/5 plants planted. Abbie doesn't let me get much outside time and since I got her sunburned last month I won't be taking her with me. I got out today with a bit of fussing from her to get the front flower bed sprayed for weeds and I cut the lavender bush up because it was ugly. I think when you go to rent your house out if you must have so many flower beds you should pay someone to care for them. Sometimes you'll get a tenant that likes them and can maintain them, sometimes you'll get one like me. I hate the maintenance on the yard. I just can't get out to do it. Others keep telling me they'll do it, but so far the only thing to be done is the front mowed by the new neighbor. I don't expect it from people, but I need help. I think I am going to just break down and ask the guy team at church for someone to come and do it and I can pay. I'm ok paying anyone $20-$30 twice a month, but no more than that.

I'm quite lonely out here. I don't really have many friends out here because the area is so big and the people here seem quite wrapped up in themselves. My one good friend is heading to Ft.Sill this month so that will suck. We hung out about once a week and she is 1. a large family, and 2. has kids the same age almost as each of my 4 boys. It makes me wish we were moving east. Next summer can't come soon enough as I am ready to move on from this place. The weather does seem like it may finally stay nice, but it is June 15th already so we've been ready for a while. I think the weather has been bringing me down too. I certainly feel better with the windows open with some fresh air flowing through the house.

Got a busy day tomorrow so we'll have some down time in the morning and then in the afternoon we'll head off to our first event and then follow that up with bible study in the evening. I am liking the bible study and enjoying visiting with others.

I am off to night to start getting everyone ready for bed. All but Abbie were bathed after playing in the sprinkler today and I am very exhausted so an early bed time would be fine by me. :)